Okay I’ve hopped onto the bandwagon, it’s been a few years since I had one of these. Please be kind, if you send me any nonsense your message will just be removed and blocked – it’s just a waste of your own time. No NSFW nonsense either
I thought it would be fun if people sent in art requests of my characters too so if you want me to draw one of my characters doing something feel free to send it in. It will give me an excuse to draw for myself without feeling bad and I can do them while on holiday, especially our 5 hour train ride
I filled up one of my journals so I wanted to post some pictures of the inside here! Last time I finished a journal I took a video but I don’t really feel like doing that this time lol. I started this journal on Christmas 2020 and completed it a few weeks ago. It’s a lot less filled just because I don’t want the book to fall apart so it’s not “fully used” just because I want to be able to preserve it ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Eli’s siblings birthdays are on Friday so we went into town to get them some things – and me being bad I also got a few things for myself (but I wasn’t bad! I only spent £25 alltogether). We’re all going out to Pizza Hut on Friday for their birthday and I’m super excited because this will be the first time I’ve ever been out for dinner with Eli’s Mom
Also while we were out it was very hard to be good in Build A Bear, I ordered some things in their clearence sale but every time we go and see Grogu I’m just so 👀 It’s hard to be good and wait!!
Something that’s sad is that all the Disney stores are closing, they were having a big sale but nothing for us really. I wanted this bag but the price was just too much for it since it was tiny, maybe I’ll find it cheaper elsewhere. It would be cute to use as a “little” bag and it’s a good material to put buttons and pins onto
I really enjoyed Lucca, even considering making a self-insert character for it. And I love all ocean related stuff so it’s right up my alley, maybe if it goes on sale online I’ll pick it up because you can get your name embroidered into them ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
I got this Star War shirt which I freaked out when I saw it because it’s amazing and it’s so hard to find Star Wars shirts that are not only colorful but also not black. I’m so excited to wear it!
I prefer to wear night dresses (I know lol – they’re really just shirts that go down to your knees though) instead of like pajamas and I only have a few so I got a new one that I’m gonna be saving for our holiday ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Some fun socks ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
And the most amazing thing was Claires, we don’t usually go in but we decided to today. And it was get 3 things from clearence for £ 5, if it wasn’t the sale everything I would have bought would have been £ 35 and I only paid £ 5 for it all. I originally only wanted to get the mini bag but thought £ 5 was too expensive for it, then I just went for it once I saw the sale
A Pusheen bag to hold my Tamagotchi in. I already had my Tamagotchi in another Pusheen bag but this one is a keychain so it’s much better / easily accessible
Pusheen pencil case, I plan on using this for bringing my Apple pencil and charger around because I find the magnetic on the new iPad isn’t very strong and the pencil is lost easily
Lastly was this little dog who’s like a squishy but a stuffed animal one, who’s gonna go in my stim toy bag (do you guys want to see what’s in it?) he’s also watermelon scented! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Today marks officially 2 weeks until our holiday! 🥳 🎉
We’ll be going on holiday to celebrate our 5 year anniversary from August 17th – 25th and I have the 16th – 30th off work so it’s going to be a suuper long holiday for me even when we’re back home
When we’re away I’m gonna be trying my best to post here using my iPad – it works differentl though so if things don’t look right then that’s why ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
For the first few days of our holiday we’ll be in London and the rest we’re spending at Eli’s Dads in Poole. So far in London we’re both getting tattoos, going to Hamleys, going to the Moomin shop, and the museum. Then when we’re at Eli’s Dads we are going to the aquarium!!!!
I’m trying suuuper hard to be good and not start packing already but it’s really hard, I’m too excited! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
🌈Note: This happened a little bit ago! I have a computer now so I’m just trying to update my blog with things that have happened the past month🌈
Thanks to work early last month I got the new iPad Pro! So I was able to trade in my old one and got some cool things in return for it : D ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
The first and best thing – I have a computer now! It doesn’t run games very well but it’s good for going online and things. Maybe eventually I will look into getting bits added to it so I can play games on it. It’s been so nice having a computer again!!
I was gonna just cover it in random stickers but these Star Wars stickers that are made specifically for devices were on sale for 25 pence at a home store so I got them and Eli thought it would be good if I used them to decorate my laptop ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
I still had money left over on my voucher from buying a laptop so I also was able to get two games! These are games I’ve been wanting for a little while now. I’m trying very hard to be good and not play them until our holiday ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
🌈Note: This happened a little bit ago! I have a computer now so I’m just trying to update my blog with things that have happened the past month🌈
Because we’re going on holiday we haven’t gone out to get our groceries (just been ordering online) just to save money & time because Eli has been taking a lot of overtime too. But we went out for our groceries the other day which was really nice!! We went to an American themed gas station and a home store along with the grocery store ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Fit of the day! ✨
I wanted to get some of these fruit snacks but they were sooooo expensive (£5 each! 🥲) so I settled on getting pictures of them instead ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
I have been waiting for Bluey merch to arrive for wayyy too long but these super tiny plush were just way too expensive, maybe if the price goes down I’ll pick one up!
Eli and I have been looking for these forever! We wanted to get them since it matches the ones we use in the game. Was super excited to find them : D ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
They had this super cute Grogu bag at the grocery store, I was super tempted to buy it because it looks just like a Loungefly bag. But I already have a Star Wars back so I decided against it ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
🌈Note:This happened a little bit ago! I have a computer now so I’m just trying to update my blog with things that have happened the past month🌈
Or what I called “illegally watched Spirit Untamed party” because it didn’t come to the UK theatres until like July 28th and I didn’t want to wait that long to watch it (and I also felt weird to see it in theatres because Spirit Riding Free does not have an adult fanbase like My Little Pony does). ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Eli being the best boy made me a whole Spirit Untamed party for that day which was great! : D
It was alright but not what I had hoped & expected. It really only gets a pass from me because it’s Spirit related and Boomerang actually gets a lot of screen time in it. For starters the entire movie is basically the first few episodes of the show but with a few differences. It completely fucks with the canon of the entire thing. I don’t know if the movie was in production before the show but I can’t really see how they’re going to continue with the show when the movie just totally changes the story and events. Most people watching Spirit Untamed are either 1. Angry Spirit original fans who just watch it to hate anyways -or- 2. Spirit show fans so I’m not really sure why they fucked that up so badly.
All the character translations from the show to movie are great except for Snips. I have no idea why they changed his design so much, it was very distracting…….like…..this is not the same character??
All 3 of the girls meet and have barely begun talking or even formed proper relationships with each other before they’re like BFFS for life kinda stuff. Which I get it it’s a kids movie but they could have made it progress more naturally. And lastly the conflict is solved as soon as it’s started with very little effort. Again I know it’s a kids movie but I’d just hope if they could do it on the show they’d have some of the writers brought over for the movie Overall good! Just not what I was expecting / wanting really wish they had chosen to go with an original storyline / adventure than basically just a re-cap of what we’ve already seen from the show just slightly changed. I’m sure the more I watch it the more I’ll warm up to it. When I first started watching Spirit Riding Free I didn’t like it either ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛
Hello! I know it has been literally….. almost 3 months since I’ve posted here – if you follow me anywhere else I’ve said why but I’ll just re-type it for convenience sake. I no longer have a laptop I can use to post – I also have no intentions of getting a new one either. Eli’s Mom has given me her old one to use but he has yet to sort it out for me since he’s been busy with end of the year uni work.
“How are you posting this?” I’m using my work computer, which is in the attic – that I only use when I’m at work. So that’s why I’m not using it for blogposts but it’s been so long I figured I’d post an update because I haven’t abandoned my blog! I do have a keyboard for my iPad, it’s not the most ideal way for me to post because I don’t like WordPresses mobile layout but I also don’t want to get into the continues bad habit of posting primarily on Twitter or posting personal things on FurAffinity as both have led to un-needed conflict and judgement from others. Here I can just be myself without any censoring which I much prefer.
In relation to this I’ve pretty much cut out all forms of interaction regarding myself / my work altogether. Submission & journal comments on FurAffinity are disabled unless they are commission related (or if feedback is needed). I have removed my personal chatting handles publicly except for this blog so people need to ask to have them. I’ve disabled personal messages from Twitter unless we follow each other. So at the moment the only “public” way to interact with me is through Twitter replies or replies on this blog. I originally wanted to leave FurAffinity journal comments open but it has provided just as negative to my mental health, if the same happens with this blog I will remove them aswell (if that’s even possible) but I’m hoping that people with behave so that I don’t have to do that.
Additionally, I left all Discord & Telegram group chats that I was apart of. I’ve held off on doing this for a long time incase I regret it but these are all public servers that if I ever felt in the right mindset I could easily join again. Ultimately I would much prefer to have completely new Telegram & Discord handles completely that only friends know the handles of but it’s just too much work to actually do. This sort of “self isolation” phase has been really helping my mental health a lot. I feel an immense pressure to reply to messages and have intense conversations constantly that I just can’t mentally keep up with – messaging these days comes with a lot of pressure and fear, it’s not something you just do. By removing comments on most of my sumbission sites it’s also allowing me to create artwork for myself and not for feedback. I no longer feel like I need to upload every drawing I create in fear that if I don’t – or if I get no comments on it it will have been a “waste”.
All of the above are things regarding to my own mental health and well-being directly. I am not giving advice – I am not saying that it will work for you. This change has made me feel more mentally healthy regarding social interactions with others than I have in a long time and has done wonders for me!
My sort of “comfort” thing right now is Animal Jam – which is great because it’s something that allows me to just completely remove myself from my artwork and furry persona in general. I’ve even made a group of friends who pretty much know nothing about my art and just like me for who I am as a person which feels good. I doubt anyone who’s reading this plays but if you do my username is Rainbowredcrayon. Please tell me if you’re adding me as I don’t add random people!
This is just a random blog as a general update – I don’t have anything fun to share since I haven’t been taking any pictures to post here. I’ll give a try posting on the iPad again. The Spirit movie comes out next month (although the merchandise over here is very very minimal), I am doing my dream job, lockdown has lifted, I am feeling happy again, things are good. Thankyou to whoever has read!
Happy Monday! I wasn’t exactly sure how this week would turn out considering I had a bad flare-up over the weekend but this week is starting on a great note! As per usual, no actual plans for the week. I’m considering taking up playing New Leaf again, New Horizons just doesn’t hit that Animal Crossing spot for me anymore. It’s more like a decorating game than an Animal Crossing game. I’d like to be friends with my villagers again and feel excited to play every day. I’ve bought a 3ds charger and I’d also like to spruce my 3ds itself up if I can. Figure out how hacking works and give myself fun custom themes and things.
Not too long after I got up for the day a package came from me! Birthday gifts from my dear friend Marina. She always sends me the most amazing things. The Moomins especially were a massive surprise. I cried when I opened up the giant one. I am so lucky to have such a special gift from a special friend. Here are some close up pictures of the gifts she gave me.
I’m not in the habit of taking pictures of my food but my lunch today looked very “little” and happy so I wanted to take a picture of it. I’d like to start looking into maybe making lunches ahead of time, so I can have something nice that isn’t just a sandwich. If you have any suggestions please feel free to comment them! Do note I am an extremely picky eater though 😅
Today must have just been my mail day! My Squishmallow keychain came in the mail. I’d really like to get myself and Eli some more. I’m in the process of making a “dreamies” / ISO list for them. Technically I have 3 including the clip, but my very first is still stuck in Canada. I probably won’t get him again for a good few years.
I managed to find the time to finish this Star Wars coloring I had started a few days earlier. This is from a set of coloring pages my friend Beth got me for my birthday. As you can see the paper is a bit of a weird texutre, it doesn’t take to crayons very well which is why it looks so chunky. The wax just seems to stick ontop of eachother.
I get two days off a week, which is the weekend. Saturdays I get to spend with Eli but on Sunday I’m alone. If I have the energy to I think I might start dedicating Sundays to helping clean, which usually takes me a long time just for a little bit.
I’ve gotten into a “spring cleaning” headspace right now. Where I want to de-clutter and get rid of some things. I dedicated an hour last night to tidying up my craft cart and organizing things within it.
One of the things Eli gave me for my birthday was this binder with a few printed out coloring pages inside. I decided that I’d use this binder to hold all of my coloring pages in! So instead of keeping coloring books, I will take the pages I like out of them and get rid of the rest. That way it saves a lot of space and bulk. So far I’ve only gone through the coloring books I have downstairs but I do plan to also look through some of the ones stored upstairs too.
I took the time to organize and go through my craft cart yesterday which surprisingly took an hour to do. But I’m super happy with the outcome! The top holds my crayons, markers, Nintendo Switch, Switch controller, and my Tamagotchi. The second layer is my coloring books & coloring pages. The final layer holds my journal, a horse activity book, my washi tape, a craft tin, my stickers, my stim bag, and the bag I use to carry around my Tamagotchi.
I had a few tins lying around that I wasn’t using for anything, I dedicated the first one to “random” craft supplies that didn’t have a home.
I’m using this Paw Patrol tin to hold all of my stickers in! Stickers were another bulky thing that I had. A really smart way to cut them down and not loose any was cutting the ones I hadn’t used yet already out of an almost empty sheet. It saves a lot of space!
The day is not over and I’ve already had a really good Monday!! I’m excited for Eli to get home tonight. I still haven’t completed all my work for the day but there are some other things I’d like to do tonight too. Have a bath, play Fortnite, then I’ll see what else!
Here’s some goals I’d like to accomplish this week: ❤️ Start trying to plan out a schedule, certain time I go to bed, certain time I wake up, when I go to work, when I have lunch, ect. Just figure out how I can better manage my time so I don’t feel like I’m constantly working.
🧡 Research ideas on different lunches that I can have
💛 Ride my bike / get it properly set up
💚 Get bike cushion & stand
💙 Research more about 3ds things. How I can decorate it, how to get custom homescreen, ect
If you follow me anywhere you might have noticed me change my avatars / drawing more artwork of this little guy. He’s my new fursona (no not taking over Baby Boy – no this does not mean that the others are for sale I will block you if you ask, sorry). All the other sonas I’ve created have quickly shifted to secondary fursonas, just because they represent certain aspects of me but not me fully. I created Blu because I wanted someone fun and easy to draw and commission art of. Just like Baby Boy, Blue is a “truesona”. Which means he reflects me in every way shape or form. Same style, same body type, same personality, everything! I also wanted to visit my original roots, since my very first fursona was a white corgi with orange markings. I feel like a simple design suits me a lot.
A big source of inspiration for Blu was one of my best and closest friends, Rory. Who’s fursona is also a samoyed mix. I’ve always found her fursona really easy and relaxing to draw which is exactly why I chose to also make Blu a samoyed mix.
I am also trying to use him in a sort of therapeutic way. From being shamed by family about my weight or being around peers / society that puts out this idea that only thin people are allowed to be happy / being fat is bad. Even trying to buy clothes especially ones that fit my rainbow style in a large size is very hard. In some ways my body image has gotten better but also with the constant talk of others who are obsessed with calories and loosing weight everywhere, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Tik Tok, it has definately gotten a lot worse for me, especially since I’m stuck in my own head with these thoughts. I am trying to become better and learn to love my body the way it is, because it is how it’s meant to be. It’s very hard to tell what parts are dysphoria and what parts are about my weight. I’m hoping that Blu can help me love myself at any size.